Tattoo-ed Rebel =)

As I promised...Aiden got a haircut!! Cuuuuute :)

He's Just Not That Into You!

So today at work was pretty awkward. The janitor and I got into another fight and I called him something very racial and very explicit. I'm not a racist person mind you...how could I be with so many cultures in my family? But I merely said this to get a rise out of my dumb co-worker. He told me I was ugly & fat and at that point, my whole body went numb, I saw black and I threw my water bottle at him as hard as I could and I said what I said. I immediatley knew that what I did was unacceptable and i'm sure the whole building heard it because I screamed it at the top of my lungs. I have a conscience and when I do something bad I won't be able to sleep unless it's resolved. So I went to his manager and I went to my manager and told them what I had done. My manager told me that I need to write a statement and that she was going to go to some other people that I can't remember right now and assess everything. Hopefully I don't get fired.

I think that I want to buy a couple of things online. I know I shouldn't because I have other bills to pay for but I think I may have a problem. I am addicted to spending money. I need to have self control. What I want is:

-Kymaro Body Shaper $40.00
-Bump Its for your hair...not sure the price.
-All the Twilight series books and the price varies if I want to buy them used or not.

I'm just sitting at home with Aiden while he plays with the baby powder and yes if you can imagine it, it's EVERYWHERE!! =) But it's easy to clean up so I let him do it. I'm just waiting for Joe to come over so we can eat some dinner. He said he would be done at the gym at 6pm but it's 6:30 and he hasn't texted me back yet. I don't know. I kinda feel like maybe he is just not that into getting back together with me. He acts sometimes like he just doesn't give a crap about anything that has to do with me. I understand that he needs to start thinking about himself but even when i'm thinking about myself, I still have sympathy and truly care for what he does, says and goes through. We are suppose to be best friends but he sometimes acts like we aren't even that. When I try to come to him about a problem of mine, he asks me what i've done wrong and it just makes me feel bad. I can't go to anyone about my problems. I don't really want to go to my parents about my problems because they are going to try and give me advice. I just want to vent to someone. I'm not looking for advice. I think I want to start talking to a shrink...just so i'm not bottling everything up inside waiting for the day I explode about it. I don't know what else to say about it. I just feel so helpless when it comes to him. There's nothing I can do about how I feel about the way he acts towards me.

Ok well i'm going to go for now. Will blog more later :)

*Chuck Norris can eat just one Lay's potato chip.*

Happy 21st Birthday Adrian!!

Okay, so it's been awhile since i've blogged. Have alot to catch up on. Let's start with last weekend. I had Friday off because it was a "Donsa Day" which means no military actions are going on that day and all military people have that day off...so that means I do to. I worked on Saturday though. The UFC Fight Night. I brought Joe along and he asked his two friends Ricky and Chris. The janitor from my work (let's call him loser haha) had to say something about Joe. He told me I need to step my game up because Joe was fat and ugly. Yeah well we will see what he's saying the next UFC night because Joe is going to that one too. I didn't work Sunday or Monday. Joe pretty much stayed the night with me the whole weekend. It was nice. That's about it for the weekend. I didn't do much but relax. Ahhh.

By the way, Peter (a manager where I work), cut my hours :(. I don't work on Mondays from now on because Mondays are the slowest work days of the week. But he said I was first priority when it came to family night and fight night. Meaning i'm the one who is always going to be working those. And I asked him if maybe I can start bartending at night and he said that he's really going to consider it because he wants to help me out.

I'm so glad loser didn't show up to work today. God he is so immature...he's 27, I mean grow up man!! He is just mad at me because I don't want to get together with him. I told him yesterday that I hope he jumps off a bridge and dies!! He also threw in my face that atleast he graduated and went to college...HA! Joke...I said, then why the hell are you a janitor?! Oh my god, I'm so done talking about that idiot!

Today is my friend Adrian's birthday. So I went over there after work and visited with him and his sisters and Joe for a little while. But my idea of a good time is not sitting there watching like 20 rounds of soccer lol. So I took off. Kind of felt like I was a dead log there hahaha. Also after work I went into the McChord Clinic and got my 2nd series shot of HPV and since I wasn't vaccinated when I was a child, I got my Hepatitis A and B shots. That hurt lol. Anyway, now i'm at home and Aiden seems sooo miserable right now. Poor baby, I think he's tired :(. I'm going to go put him down for a nap.

Also today is my brother's 26th birthday. Happy birthday Chris.

Bye for now!! :)

*Two wrongs don't make a right. Unless you're Chuck Norris. Then two wrongs make a roundhouse kick to the face.*

"Aiden Tattoos"

So work was...ehhhh...okay. I'm pretty stoked though. I have Friday, Sunday and Monday off. But I do have to work on Saturday for the UFC Fight Night. Peter asked me if I wanted to cook instead of do cash register. Hmm...let's see. Work as a cook and get an extra hour of work orrrrr, work cash register and get tips...hmm. Which one should I do?! lol. Tiiiiips =).

Anyway, I ended up working till about 2:45-ish. And I guess my parents had an appointment for chantix or whatever. So they were late or whatever. Haha.

Joe was going to come over today because I asked him to and then he told me that he would rather come over tomorrow. I'm okay with that. My parents are okay with letting him come over from now on. We talked yesterday when he came over and it looks like things might be looking up for me. I don't want to talk about it right now and "curse" it. Anyhow, last night he came over after being at the gym for hooouuurrrsss :) and then we went to Lakewood to go get some Pho. Yesss, oh man it was so good. And then we came back to the house and went up to my bedroom and stayed up there until he had to leave. He was going to stay the night but my mom said no. One of these days she will start letting him stay the night again. I figured it was a bad idea for him to stay the night last night anyway because I had to leave the house at 6:30am. But I had alot of fun with him last night. It just felt right.

I can't wait to start seeing more of him :)

Anyway, came home and was babysitting Aiden while the parents were at their appointment. Oh by the way he got his hair cut today :D I'll post a picture. He looks sooo much older. Anyhow, back to my story, I came home and did the dishes. I fell asleep on the couch because I was just so damn exhausted and Aiden was sitting behind my legs. I woke up to him drawing all over my leg :). So now I have a huge "Aiden Tattoo". I'll wash it off in the shower tonight.

Okay well, I should probably get up and do something before I fall asleep again.
Bye!! <3

*Chuck Norris doesnt wear a watch, HE decides what time it is.*

Motivation & Missing Him

Worked from 7:30am to 2:30pm. While I was at work Ron had texted me and asked me if I could drive my mom to her appointment today and he would just meet up with us and drive mom home. I came home right after I dropped her off and put Aiden upstairs with a movie and started cleaning downstairs. Picked up all of Aiden's toys and now i'm looking for the motivation to make about 20 trips up and down the stairs to put them in his new play room. *COME ON MOTIVATION!!* So as soon as I take all of the toys upstairs, I'm going to vaccuum and then do the dishes. And then that leaves me with going through EVERYTHING on the kitchen counters and clearing all that stuff off so we actually have counters again!! And then I will do the other living room and sort through the entertainment center and vaccuum in there and then that will be it for the downstairs. I should actually go through the shrunk too and get rid of all the crap in there because God knows there's stuff in there that's over 30 years old that should have been trash 29 years ago hahaha.

From doing the pushups that I have been doing, my arm muscles and my chest muscles are sore. I love the feeling of sore muscles because that means I am accomplishing something. I haven't done my workout yet but i'll get to it.

Joe is supposed to come over today. Yes, for once, my parents told me he can come over to the house. They usually say no because of what happened between me and him but since i'm doing so much around the house I think that they are giving me some slack. He went to the gym at 2:30pm and he's been there ever since....it's 6:30pm. I'm just wondering when he is going to get his butt over here. I really wanted to go out for some Pho tonight but he probably won't. Which I think is stupid! But i'm going to ask anyway. Maybe some Jamba Juice.

I just miss him so much. I really miss seeing him everyday and I miss.....everything actually. I miss looking at my future and he is in it as my everything still, I miss living with him. I miss watching him play video games and playing video games with him. I miss watching movies and cuddling. I miss our late night snacks and I miss his touch....the most.


*Excuse me for a moment*


Well, that's pretty much it for today...well atleast to this point for now. I'm going to get off and probably lay down for a minute. I haven't had any rest since 7am. EXHAUSTED!! hehe. Alrighty, bye :)

*Chuck Norris can win at solitaire with only 18 cards.*

Whodunit?!

So, today has been a pretty long day for me. Woke up at 8am and got ready for work. Left the house at 9:45am-ish and got there 7 minutes late. Today we served Beef Tips (YUCK), Stuffed Pork Chops, Rice, Potatoes, Mixed Veggies and Dinner Rolls. I worked on the grill for a little bit again. So 1pm rolls around and we shut down the lunch line and I went and cleaned up the salad bar and swept and mopped and clocked off and went home.

On my drive home I was remember a little "contract" I have with my parents so I was mentally preparing myself to do some more cleaning when I went home...dishes and sweep and mop the kitchen, dining room and hallway floor. But to my surprise, my step-dad had already done the dishes. So all I had to do was the floor. Pretty simple.

And back on to my daily workout regimen. Treadmill, Ab-lounge and some push ups to get rid of my ugly arm fat :/. I don't feel like i'm getting smaller at all. I feel like i'm getting HUGER!! My mom is literally losing a pound a day and I feel like i'm gaining 10 pounds a day.

I was going to stop on my way home from work to see Joe. But his sister was going to be home soon and I didn't want to be there when she got there so I figured it was probably a bad idea. I really wanted him to stop by my house before he went to work but I told him it was okay to stop and see me another day. I feel like if I tell him things like this, then he won't feel like i'm bugging him as much. I really don't want to bother him with stupid stuff like wanting to hang out with him all the time or talk to him all the time. I keep having to remind myself that we aren't together and I don't have the right to text him whenever I want or call him whenever I want. I don't have that luxury anymore. I miss him alot. (Have to quit talking about this now!)

:'(

Anyhow. Tomorrow I think I am going to clean up the downstairs and put all of Aiden's toys up in Ariana's old room. Ron had cleaned it out. We need to start keeping this damn house clean!! Everytime anyone cleans anything up, the next day it's messy again! The paternity test came back by the way.......Aiden's father. It's who we all thought it was but this was a guarantee. I'm not too sure i'm happy about the fact that number one: Chelsie is trying to get money out of him and Aiden is NOT seeing any of it, number two: Chelsie is trying to get him to come into Aiden's life...and i'm not sure if that's even the best idea. Aiden's life is stable right now, he doesn't need people coming in and out of his life with no good intentions. And for crying out loud!! Jason gave Chelsie $50 right of the bat for child support and promised more later and guess what....she spent it on herself. Ooooh and I just talked to my dad today and Chelsie has been calling and asking him for money. I told him I hope he isn't giving her any. He told me she called and asked for money for Aiden so he had sent her some...guess what? Aiden did NOT get any of that money. And then she called again and asked him for money to get her cell phone turned back on. How selfish..I wouldn't dare ask my dad for money right now. His mom just died and he had to pay for everything! And he barely gets any money as it is.

Okay well i'm heading off for the night. Goodnight! :)

*Chuck Norris eats steak for every single meal. Most times he forgets to kill the cow.*

Midnight Sun--Edward's Perspective

To Sandy:

As for your request...just go to this link :)

http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/pdf/midnightsun_partial_draft4.pdf

America's Next Top (Baby) Model

Little Aiden Riley looooooves to be photographed. Everytime he sees a camera, he runs to it really fast, picks it up and hands it to the closest person he is by. So about 52 million pictures are taken daily. Everytime I go to shut off the camera because there are only so many times I can take a picture of one pose :), he starts to cry... :'( He loves the spotlight lol.

And to say, in some of the pictures i've taken, i've noticed that he looks like his cousin Tristan. So precious.


Anyway, I have to hop in the shower and hit the sack...have to work in the morning.

*Chuck Norris can sneeze with his eyes open.*

Osment VS. Underwood

Is it just me or do these do look very similar?! Like dopper twins!! Haha. Emily Osment to the left, sister of Haley Joel Osment and co-star on Hannah Montana and on the top, of course you all know, Carrie Underwood; American Idol winner and country singer. I noticed this alot so I had to just bring it to everyone's attention. :) Both very beautiful, talented people.

Anyway, today I started a workout regimen. We will see how long I can stick to that. Treadmill, ab-lounge, any workout video I can fit in....aka: pilates, yoga..blah blah. Yesterday was waaay too hectic for me so I didn't have time to blog about ANYTHING!! I will blog more later on today but I have to put this computer on it's charger...it's got 9 minutes of life left :/. Bye <3

*Chuck Norris is suing Myspace for taking the name of what he calls everything around you.*

Sweeeeet Caroline!!!

Okay, well today is the "big" Boston game. I woke up at 9am to prepare for my day :). I finished at 11am. I thought I would take longer but evidently i'm good at what I do haha. Now I have to wait around until 2:45pm to go and pick up Joe from work and go. I'm hoping I can convince him to go down the water front to my favorite seafood joint and get some deep fried oysters. Mmm. I can't remember the name of the place but i'll definatley take some pics and post them up. I bought a Red Sox sweater and hat so I can wear them at the game. I'm pretty excited actually. Anyway, the start of my day. Won't be home till late tonight but if i'm not tired, I will definatley post a new blog with some pictures!! Catch ya later :)

*When Bruce Banner gets mad, he turns into the Hulk. When the Hulk gets mad, he turns into Chuck Norris.*

And So The Lion Fell In Love With The Lamb...

*SWOOOOON*

Seriously, why couldn't there be more men out there like Edward Cullen?! This is the perfect love story of MY time. I know alot of people out there have different "opinions" but hey, YOU'RE WRONG!! Hahaha. I just love this movie too much to let anyone diss it. I can pop this movie into the DVD player and hit loop and just let it play endlessly...which I do!! :) I have never ever been so interested in books in my life, yet this series intrigued me. I have to admit that I watched the movie before I read the books. And before I watched the movie, I didn't even realize how BIG of a deal this whole Twilight thing really was. But once I watched the movie, I knew I had to read the books. Which i'm so very glad I did. Yet, I wish they would have put more from the book into the movie. I don't care if it's 4 hours long!! That would be perfect actually. So yes, I am very eager for New Moon to come out and there is so much anticipation that I think I am going to pee my pants!! I honestly don't think I can wait that long. Ooooh speaking of which...about "Edward's Perspective". Hmm....read the leak and I really wish Stephenie Meyer would get off her high horse and just write the rest of the darn thing already! I really loved reading it from Edward's thoughts. Much more fascinating!

Anyhow, I think all the roles are played excellently. Couldn't have picked a better cast! And oh yeah, did I mention....EDWARD CULLEN IS HOT!! My mom always tells me she is going to go find Edward Cullen and bring him back to me. She doesn't mind if I am a vampire, as long as I am happy ;) lol. What a cute little joke we have.

So I have a problem...when I get obsessed, I get OBSESSED. So let me put it this way. I loved the movie, so I loved the book. I loved Edward Cullen...so naturally, I love Rob Pattinson. Ugh, except when he talks in his crappy british accent. How un-manly. Alright enough bashing on my man ;). But anyway, he's a singer! Yay, and he has an amazingly beautiful voice..although sometimes I can't understand the lyrics, so I have to Google them. And I memorize them after reading them once. That way when I hear his music...I know what I am listening to!! He sings 2 tracks in the movie called "Never Think" and "Let Me Sign". Although "Never Think" is on the soundtrack, "Let Me Sign" is not and that kind of makes me a little sad. So do you remember when they are sitting in the restaraunt and that hot waitress tries to hit on Edward? The music in the background is "Never Think". And when Bella gets bitten by James and she is in the process of turning...that's "Let Me Sign". He's got like a bluesy/Pop type thing to him. One of my other favorite songs of his also (and if you have time, look it up, download it, love it) is called "I'll Be Your Lover Too". And yes, if you have downloaded it, you will realize there was a part that he had messed up on but it doesn't matter. Because the song is just beautiful.

So November. New Moon. I can't even begin to tell you just how excited I really am for this to come out. Although I will NOT be excited to see more Jacob. Maybe the movie will change my mind. When I read this book, I seriously cried throughout the whole book. Seeing as though when I was reading it, I was going through pretty much the same thing at the beginning. (For those who haven't read the second book but plan to, then I suggest you skip through the writing in red.) I could relate to this part because when Edward had decided to leave Bella, the love of my life had in fact decided he wanted to leave me also. I was a blubbering fool!! But in the end, as with all good love stories, he appears. How wonderful. Even in that time of happiness, I was still sobbing!! I guess I wasn't so lucky. I do, however, plan to re-read all these books :). Over and over again. I know, i'm such a nerd.

Anyway, i've posted 2 blogs already today and this is the third. So maybe I should stop. I'm becoming "blog-happy". LOL!! Alright, this is it and have a wonderful night!

*Chuck Norris can kill two stones with one bird*

My Aiden Bug

I took Aiden out to play today so papa can put in the new dishwasher. He loooooves sitting in my car and honking the horn, which he was doing =) all the while we were listening to "Wild Thing" on the radio. I would say, "Aiden, radio!" and he would turn the music up even louder and start jigging. So precious.

*As President Roosevelt said: "We have nothing to fear but fear itself. And Chuck Norris."*

Freedom Rings Again!!!

Heeeey =]

Finally off work. Boy am I exhausted! Anyway, worked the breakfast this morning and met some cool military guys. One in particular was really nice so we sat and talked for a good ten minutes about his wife and kids. Lol, how dull!! The reason why all the military people are in our building is because they hold classes in the "Olympic Room" for like learning arabic languages and driving lessons. I have a routine now. I go in at 7:30am, get the bagels, muffins and cream cheese from fridge #2. I grab the two vats of coffee and head to the bar. I set those down and get the cart of goodies from the storage closet. And then I go the office and grab my money for the till. I go back to the bar, set up the coffee station, set up the muffin and bagel station and then put all my money in the till. Then I turn on the tv and grab my chair and for the next two and a half hours I watch one of my favorite tv shows: Las Vegas!! I love my routine.

Oooh by the way!! I finally got my car back today. Ahh feels so good to drive again and be independent again. I bought Redsox tickets a couple months back when me and Joe were still together and we had intended on going to the game together. Well as you know, things sort of went bad lol and he had the tickets...(I had his xbox =]) and I didn't want to fight over the tickets but he knew I still wanted to go. Finally after months of hints and stuff that I still wanted to go, he finally today said we would go together. The game is tomorrow lol. It's going to be my first baseball game ever! I am so stooooked! Plus I guess it's a chance to hang out with Joe for a little bit. After he gets off work at 2:45pm I am going to pick him up from work and we are going to head out to Seattle. The game is at 7pm. We will see what happens.

Today for lunch we served baked chicken, ribs, rice, macaroni & cheese, mixed vegetables and dinner rolls. Of course I worked on the grill today.. :) I like working the grill. Anyway that's the gist of my day.


*When you're Chuck Norris, anything + anything is equal to 1. One roundhouse kick to the face.*

Beginner Blog...Short Story Anyone?!

Okay. So life is pretty rocky for me right now..but I am trying to keep my head high and take it all in stride. I'm only 20. Things will come and go and I just have learn to deal with it all. Right now I am working on Fort Lewis. I am a "food and beverage attendant". I work for a place called American Lake Community Club and Cascade Community Club. I serve food and work catered events. Always around military. I have been working there since April 22, 2008. So yes, this is the longest job i've kept =). *proud*
Recently me and my latest boyfriend broke up. Would have been 2 years on April 1st. Guess we didn't last long. We broke up in October...Right after he turned 21. He changed so much after that. Please don't let me go into details about what happened :/ That's just a book waiting to be written. It still hurts...and I imagine it will for awhile. Yes, we still talk and yes, i'm still so very in love with him...bound to happen. I honestly just can't imagine NOT loving him anymore...my best friend. My rock. I HAVE to stop writing about this right now...i've done so good not to cry and I don't want to start now...Maybe later i'll have the strength to talk about it. We will see.


Of course, I only have one viewer =)
Sandy.
Hey there..haha. But eventually I will get more people to go on here and start doing blogs. Friends and what not. So for now, all that i'm writing is to update my sister. So, i'm planning on making a trip down to Portland to see my sister, her husband and my awesome nephew and neice. Gotta save up for that one. Plus, as of right now, my car is grounded. I got into a wreck on April 17th. I didn't have the money to pay for the insurance deal so my mom and her husband did...I can't have my car back until I pay the $500. Sucks being chauffered around all the time. I'll take what I can get and be happy about it.

But today...funny story...(God, I laugh to myself!!) I was working the breakfast at the Cascade and I had a small breakfast rush. One of the last customers was being rung up and I told him his total...which wasn't much lol, $3.35. He said, "For this price I should get a phone number and a date"....oh my gosh. This guy looked much older than me. (Am I really looking older? Hmm, I am not sure I like that!!) Anyway I said to him that not many people realize how old I am. He asked and I said 20. He was kind of shocked but then basically told me age is just a number!! Ahhh hahahaha. Okay, so he's standing there after he pays me, obviously expecting something. I really didn't want to give this guy my phone number. So I looked at him and said, "You have a nice day!!" He kind of looked disappointed but caught my drift and quickly left...evidently embarassed. I sort of felt bad but should I?? I don't think so.


Earlier today I was babysitting my nephew Aiden. I was so exhausted from work so I layed down and let him play around the bed. I put on Shark Tale and just watched it. At about 6pm I really started to get tired drifting in and out of sleep. I woke up everyonce in awhile to make sure Aiden was still okay. Of course he was, my cat was there! So obsessed with my cat! haha. Anyway, 7pm rolls around and Aiden hadn't had his nap at all today...next thing I know Aiden crawled in bed next to me and I kid you not, 2 seconds later he is snoring!! Tired, tired boy. Man that kid makes me laugh. Well, Aiden is another blog another time...there is just way too much I could tell you about this kid but I don't want to make this blog into a short story! =) Well, it IS 10pm and I should probably hit the sack. I have to work breakfast again at 7:30am. I'm pretty used to getting up so early anymore. On weekends when I can actually sleep in, I end up waking up at 8am and can't fall back asleep. Okay, well. Goodnight!


*Chuck Norris once ran around the world so fast, he punched himself in the back of the head*